Not racing (whiny)

I don’t like not racing. I’ve been sort of sick for the last week or so and sat out the race today and I didn’t finish the race last week. I don’t know what’s wrong with me; I may have overtrained and now need a break — I rode very hard two weekends ago and may not have let myself recover sufficiently. Or I may be fighting off a virus, or something like that. I’m not sure. But my heart rate is unusually high and I feel weak and tired. I’m not good at backing off the exercise — all last week I wasn’t feeling quite right, but I ignored it and rode a couple times and did a lot of walking and some vigorous yoga. Maybe I’m in need of a real, serious break.

Anyway, while I generally like watching bike races, I don’t like watching them when I’m not able to ride myself. The riders look like they are having so much fun and the pack looks so pretty gliding around the course that I really want to join them. I went to the race this evening to watch Hobgoblin ride, and that was fine, I like watching him ride, but it’s also a reminder that I’m not able to do it myself. Other racers ask me why I’m not racing, and I have to explain, and a couple of them told me that they weren’t feeling well themselves but decided to race anyway — which was not exactly fun to hear. And then I listen to my teammates discuss the race afterward, and they are so full of adrenaline, having so much fun dissecting the dynamics of the race, and I’m jealous. Mostly, though, I’m annoyed because my training is all messed up, and I don’t know when I’ll feel like training again.

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10 responses to “Not racing (whiny)

  1. Not racing is a normal part of racing. The times I’ve spent on the sidelines were often alongside other non-racing racers. My teammate B.K. was at Fitchburg this past weekend, and she missed us, and I missed being there with her (if just to lend moral support). However, I didn’t miss the part about the race being really hard and competitive.

    It’s hard to take time off, to turn off that OC tendency that we all have and really rest.

    So, I hope to see you at N.B., either on the bike or no.

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  2. I hope you feel better soon so you can get back to racing!

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  3. Thanks Fendergal! That’s a good reminder. And I’m planning on going to N.B. — we’ll see what I do there.

    Iliana — thank you!

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  4. “my heart rate is unusually high and I feel weak and tired.”

    This sounds serious. Might be a good time to take a break, or at least just cut down a little. You have a whole life time to train. Take care.

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  5. Sorry to hear you are feeling unwell. I think it is good, though, you are listening to your body and taking a break–even if you really do wish you could be out their racing. Maybe a break now will help you feel more energetic at your next race.

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  6. I understand the frustration – it stinks to have to stop just when you’re hitting your stride, when you feel like you’re making significant gains. The worst is how quickly you can lose your conditioning – you strive for months to reach a certain level of fitness, and two or three weeks of sitting around can make you feel like you’re starting from the beginning again!

    I hope you feel better soon, but don’t rush the recovery – nothing is worse than a relapse. Relax, go for walks, and get plenty of sleep!

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  7. Oh poor Dorothy! I’m so sorry to hear that you are under the weather, and I agree with all the other commenters – look after yourself, rest, eat extremely well, top yourself back up with simple, pleasurable activities. I’m thinking of you.

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  8. Sorry you aren’t feeling well. Listen to your body and let it have some rest. Distract your mind with a few good books and soon you’ll be as good as new🙂

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  9. Sounds extremely frustrating, but I’m glad you didn’t race. I’m a huge believer in “your body knows best,” and it seems to know you shouldn’t be racing right now. Take it slow, and do what you can. It will tell you when you’re ready to race again, and if that doesn’t happen soon, maybe you should see a doctor.

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  10. Thank you for your good wishes everybody! I may bring myself to visit the doctor soon, if it doesn’t get better — but I resist going to the doctor like you wouldn’t believe! I just can’t stand not to be able to ride, so that may drive me to seek out help …

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